Everyday Matters, 13 June 2007.

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Everyday Matters, 10 June 2007.

I haven’t missed a day of drawing yet. Five and counting. I like doing it. The drawings are not very good, quite crude, because I don’t give myself time to think about it. And well, the pen. But, it’s so cathartic. And another thing I’ve noticed, is that I am looking at everything with different eyes. I look at it, the shape, the shadows, the positive and negative space- I am always deciding in my head if I would like to draw this thing or that thing sometime. It’s kind of exciting.

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Everday Matters, Day 1, 07 June 2007.

Inspired by Danny Gregory’s, Everyday Matters, I began a sketchbook of my own everyday matters.

Mr. Gregory’s:

I think that he means everyday MATTERS as in IMPORTANCE, MEANING, etc. but I like to think of it as SITUATIONS, MOMENTS, the MATTER at hand. Sooo. As I was inspired, I purchased a brand new sketch book (I love any reason to buy new paper, aww yeaaa) and a pitt pen! and today was my first day drawing my everyday matters. I really need drawing practice. I’m not that great at it. sometimes I get really awesome stuff and sometimes it’s shit. It’s really about a 50/50 toss up as to what it’s gonna be. Like, my book of ideas for art projects and paintings is ridiculous and I’ve had teachers tell of its ridiculousness, because instead of sketching out things very much, it’s a really detailed written description and lots of lists. I need to not do that! It’s weird drawing today because I’ve never extensively drawn with a pen. there is no option to erase. I find that I like this. It means I have to trust myself more.

Mine:

Day 1, 07 June 2007.

(Can you read the text? Maybe I should type it in?)

Reference photos so you can see what I was seeing:

(I just took this today, it’s more naked than it was when I drew it. Sad face.)

achoo.

i am in no mood for capitals.

my head is killing me. i am pretty sure that my period is coming. all the signs are there with a vengeance. so many little things upset me. and then i can’t keep my mouth shut. and i was really trying to overcome letting ridiculous things bother me. on top of this, i am so weepy. it is as i know the things that make me sad, never stopped making me sad, but i don’t usually WEEP over them. wtf, mia?! and i’m exhausted. but that goes without saying, really. and i feel a dull ache in my belly and my back. and a stupid hurty big zit. oh, something to look forward to.

i wish alex read this. i wish he read this so that he would know, really, how sorry i am for being a cunt even though i already told him. and i wish that he read this so that he would know how much it hurt my feelings when he told me that he hated it here, today. i said, “one bad day doesn’t negate everything, does it?” he didn’t answer. how could he think that way?

i told him that i felt like i was falling in love with him again.

but to do this properly, i apparently need to have my ovaries removed.

stupid stupid stupid.

i went into the kitchen and i was shutting cabinets which alex always leaves open. (and which i SOMETIMES leave open.) i shut one, and i saw something scurry. it was too fast for me to tell if it was a cockroach or a spider, but either way, i am highly UNPLEASED. i read somewhere or alex told me or something that pests HATE cayenne pepper. so i opened all the cabinets back up and sprinkled cayenne pepper everywhere because i am a drama queen and i will have no bugs in my house, aw, hells no. so. cayenne pepper makes you sneeze HELLAS. and youknow, now my eyes water when i go in there. so i think that’s probably efficient, yes? i did throw everything that i didn’t have to reach far inside of the cabinets for away, i mean, things that were not a canned or what i would consider NUCLEARLY (i know it’s not a real word, shut it!) sealed. i put the bag on the porch. i am so paranoid. i know that old old houses/buildings will have bugs sometimes, i know this. BUT I HATE STAB STAB STAB. tomorrow when i get home i will probably clean out the cabinets and super scrub. especially now that i have to wash away all that cayenne pepper i poured everywhere, heh.

i started watching dvds of this tv series that was on hbo that eventually got canceled, i guess. it’s called DEAD LIKE ME. so far i’ve watched one episode and alex said he wanted to watch it, so i am waiting for him to watch this episode so we can start watching together. i’m still deciding how i feel about it.

OMG LOST. I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK ABOUT LOST WITH ME.

i have the big INTERVIEW this week for the library job. i’m not looking forward. mostly, this is because i don’t know exactly WHEN it’s going to occur and i work a trillion hours this week and i’m going to be tired as hell. also i’m glad i remembered that it COULD BE tomorrow as i need to look up some teen program ideas to have ready. i really am afraid i’m going to fail at this. at getting this job. i don’t know why. just that the director is a “hard egg” and i don’t think i’m the type of person that she is particularly fond of. no matter how much work i’ve done. sometimes that’s just the way life is. and if it doesn’t work out, so be it. i can live with this.

i did find out that at our one year mark of being employed at the b&n, that i am eligible for health insurance even if i am part time. it costs about 15$ a paycheck, which really isn’t so bad, youknow?

there are two books i want to more thoroughly look at. i think one was called LIFE THINGS and one was called MAKE THE MOST OF YOUR TIME or something cheesy like this. the life things one is about the spirit of your home or something. the other one is about not running around like a crazy person, which i do. i am that crazy lady in front of you in line who has to dump out her purse to find her debit card EVERY SINGLE TIME. sigh.

i also want to read more about theosis.

i have a fun package to put together for elaina at the end of this month when i get PAID.

omg, i need to look up program stuff because i am SO TIRED. and i need to take my meds. i suck at remembering. though i’ve reformatted. i’ve a better schedule for it now, i think. but i have to go into the kitchen to get water and THE PEPPER OH GOD THE PEPPER.

Q: What happens when you smell something unpleasant?

Oh, I do miss afro. But these colours do please me a bit.

I am still itchy. Some of you might recall via an email conversation today that I was, in fact, itchy. I STILL AM. OMG WHY. I think it’s because I got sunburnt.

Today, I cleaned out my shelves at the library. I threw away lots of things and filed, filed, filed things that I wanted to keep! If I do not get the better job there, Elaina, I think you might want some of my files. I have one for bulletin board ideas, one for activities and cool lessons and book lists/displays and ideas. I have one for teen stuff, like blogging and books. Some of the activities might be juvenile for your students, but I bet Sage would like them. So, if you would like them, please let me know, Thanks.

But, I HOPE I DON’T HAVE TO GIVE THEM TO YOU.

I keep having to redo my schedule for next week because 64 hours of work at 3 different places just doesn’t want to work out for me. I should take a picture of my planner. It is such a headache that I want to throw it out the damn window.

All of my canker sores went away from my vicious infection… but I got a new one today, WTF, JESUS?!

This morning I went to Clippard Elementary to walk around to all of the classrooms and talk about the summer reading club. Kids think the name Bobaloo is SILLY.

OMG, I took a shower and went to sleep with Alex when I got home and I could not hardly get up to wake him up and make him dinner. I am about to go back to bed RIGHT NOW.

I am going to read my new book (I had to start one because I have misplaced Beautiful Losers. I HOPE I DID NOT LOSE IT). I really like this book. One and a half parts have made me cry already. The book is a YA book and nearly a thousand pages and hard to hold, it cramps my hand. But, it’s written differently than things I’ve read before. And I think Lindsey Jones would like it. It reminds me of her a bit, because it is a girl recording important things for her unborn child.

This is is the book:

I am going to read til I fall asleep and it falls on my face thus smashing my nose.

Neat website I found while I was img searching the book: hip librarian’s book blog!

A: Your nose crinkles.
Title courtesy Method air enhancer available at fine local retailers, i.e. Target.